A DAY IN THE LIFE OF SPARF
shoot the shit are peep into my mind. some of these are just moved over from my tumblr- lowk will probably keep posting there too but whateverrr. IRLS PLS GO AWAYYY sighhhh dont look at me like thatttt
10/16/26
I TAKE BACK WHAT I SAID! just did my lighting final and people thought it was cute !! I might put some photos of it here..perhaps... Started watching classic 1999 show HomeMovies cus a friend of mine said she's a big fan of it (she had an ita bag of the main character - so cute ), and i really fuck with the vibes- its gotten be chuckling .
10/13/26
waiting for class to startttt - bleh
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... I really just feel like such a dumbass sometimes. It seems like so many people around me have such an eloquent way of speaking and I just have such a challenge getting my thoughts together to be coherent to other people and often even for myself. I've been told before I have a kind of odd speech pattern when talking aloud and idk why. My sentences so often just have so many words with no information and I find myself rambling off without ever getting to a point. Idk.. And don't get me started on my spelling UGHH like I love to read I really wish I was reading more but god idk if its dyslexia or something but I can not spell for the life of me and its so fucking embaressing. It takes me so long to get anything of importance done and I get distracted by stupid shit so quickly and currently I don't even have all that much stuff going on in my life but I still procrastinate the few things I do have until i somehow manage to miss the only important thing I had to get done. I feel like im just waisting time all of the time and im going to fucking die and its not going to matter BUT I WANT IT TO MATTER.
UGHHHH just venting ig hopefully no one actually reads this shit.
But yeah ugh I keep having those classic feelings that everyone I love has just been fooled by my mischievous evil plan and soon they'll get to know me enough and realize I'm a boring piece of shit who somehow convinced them to be close to me. And I KNOW that's not true... I think... like people i love have told me that they actually like hanging out with me but man I DONT KNOWWW THEY MIGHT BE LYINGGGG GUYS PLS DONT LEAVE ME PLSPLSPSLPSLSPSL. fuckkkk. ugh.
want to watch THE THING later tn .. I'll add a review of it to my movie board if i do
10/12/26
grandpa memorial todayyy... Pretty much just a bunch of old white people at a fancy restaurant with a slide show of photos going. I feel bad for not feeling that much emotion about the whole ordeal. I suppose I just never really knew the guy enough, we had like a business/college level relationship... I didn't really feel like I knew him much deeper than that. :(.
10/1/26
somehow forgot my fucking wallet and bus pass this morning and bus driver was NOT letting me on so i missed my only class today. But now i get to wander around which is nice.
god i want to get a bottle of vodka so bad rn . plans to go to the liquor store tommorow ? saturday maybe?? idk. xoxo live laugh love
9/23/26
I'm really fucking with life rn. The zombie soda tattoo my friend gave me is finally healed. aww so cute ! and i having a fucking boyfriend. this shit is crazy. Currently typing this from the basement of the creative art building on my campus. genuinely the backrooms in here. sitting on the floor listening to the fluorescent lights buzz...
my friend and i filled out a thing online yesterday so we're ordained and can legally officiate weddings. Dm me if ur interested
